First post! And I want to ask you, how are you finding this period? Fucking intense right?! Recently, things have been quite hectic for a number of people and Life seems to be pretty tough at the moment for many of us. For myself, I fractured my spine in March and I am still recovering at the moment (August). There has been other shit themes but I will keep it brief for now:
How had recovering from an injury impacted me?
Firstly, it has allowed me to appreciate things more. Being away from home, my partner, both in hospital and recovering at my mums has meant that I can notice and appreciate the smallest of things with such joy. I am trying to really savour all of that. Appreciating my physical health at the same time in ways that I haven't before. So frustrating though! That I still can't move and function in the ways that I am used to without discomfort or pain. I have found that very difficult, and the difficulities that come with being dependant is very distressing, especially for someone who until the accident I had been trying to become one independent femme.
Ironically (in terms of the appreciating physical health) it has also really stressed me out and I've reverted back to smoking unfortunately, which is something that people especially with PTSD-like symptoms find it quite hard to refrain from when things get difficult. For me, when things get back, I find it so hard to fight the addiction. It has been weird to get used to pain, and feel annoyed at others for not understanding the context sometimes. Being a Human must be so physically difficult for so many people! Understandably as well, my mind has struggled quite a bit with long periods of being lonely and isolated. It has encouragingly also meant that I have done much work on maintenance and self-care activities and therapies, so this is a double edged sword.
Looking forward to the mars retrograde being over late August.